Life’s a contradictory constant

Hehe, taking the chance to blog while being at shoot. Nothing much to do..so decided to sit and catch up on a little blogging. Like I was saying, its damm shiok to finally have some alone time…taking in a lychee sage freeze and some good ol velvet cake. Goody!

I had a friend tell me once that its sucky to be alone. Not like lonely alone but just being alone. She would be very embarassed and eat with her head down into her food, or talk to that imaginary someone on her cell…I never really understood the need for that.

Ive always thought that being alone is one of the best things ever. It’s nothing sad or embarassing at all. Having the time to do things at my own pace makes the world a little less crazy. And besides, who wouldnt appreciate a little sugar and spice? *blissful sigh*

Especially when its just you and your dessert…its totally ok to not have someone else around sharing it! Muahahha!

PS: Caught myself on the wall of the new Bakerzin site in Suntec. Quite exciting actually *grin*

Have come to realise one thing. When you stop comparing yourself to others or try to live up to an ideal, you become more stable…because who you are is not defined by how and whether you match up (or not).

*nod head*

A rare moment of lucidity. Wa.

Im sick…almost. On the verge of a full blown, nose blocking, body shuddering flu. Sheesh. Short and Sweet Week 2 is Sufficiently Satisfying (wow, notice the alliteration) and as much as I’m hoping to get into the Gala..I’m about ready to die of exhaustion. *coughcoughsneeze*

If you didnt already know, I’ve been casted in a small role for To Kill a Mockingbird…Chris Jacobs is really cool director and I’m learning sooo much! Not to mention all that Biomechanics and yaddayadda is giving me helluva biceps. Sweet! *grin* Thanks to the Big Guy…I’m actually doing something that is helping me develop the things I lack(and get some allowance ha.)

And I’m The Rainbow Fish! (At least I think my head is) So totally need to catch up on voice lessons before I shame myself again. Anyway…Point of this entire thing? I like my life!! Even when its tiring and irritating and totally swamping me over.I guess I kinda  need this before settling down to wedding business….

Guess its all about looking ahead and knowing that something wonderful will waiting for me

Sitting here on a Saturday night after a particularly satisfying night of performances. I LOVE SHORT AND SWEET! I get to work with so many people…and get to do the coolest character in my books yet! She’s funny, totally deadpanned and utterly cute! If you guys still can, try to catch Sunday’s performance - I’m in the last play "Sleepless Night" . Its the best play ever (which is why its not up for voting) and its just amazing how 3 years of longing,hating and loving can be squeezed in ten minutes..Kudos to the script writer for a freakin good script!

ALSO!! My poor brother is now officially an NS recruit…its really funny because my mom thinks that he is "going to jail". Its as though her world has come to an end just cos he got his head shaven. Sorry bro, couldnt be there to see you go get tortured *gulp* (Maybe I shouldnt have said that. If my mom saw this, she’ll bawl. Again.)  Oh well, at least I know he will come out looking totally hunky and girls will be falling left, right and centre. Muahahha. Hang in there, bro!!!

ANNOUNCEMENT: I AM IN I THEATRE’S RAINBOW FISH! (Dunno which character yet, but hell its going to be a new experience with new director and cast! Sweet!) FUNFUNFUN!

Thats my backside on the right; really tells you alot bout my character huh *grin* (I would circle it but I dont have much of a butt to begin with.)

In one of those reflective moods (yes, at 3 freakin am in the morning) and read through my blog entries this time last year.

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Around this time last year, Young n Wild staged On North Diversion Road. We were nervous wrecks, well because its our very first emsemble piece. It was an interesting time…finding out more about each other and also about our strengths and weaknesses, of which I will list here (for posterity’s sake):

(1) Need to open up my mouth and enuciate..dont be lazy

(2) Treat each word with respect (doesnt mean over analyze it)

(3) Dont judge the character, or else it wouldnt become you

(4) Live in the moment, have fun!

I guess I’m starting to learn how to have fun and still stay focused. Doing You Are Special helped me to start trusting myself as an actor and doing Hypochondriac told me that I can be disciplined and work hard at my character without someone breathing down my neck. Cool.

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Kungfu Panda was AWESOME! Mainly because it stuck to good sense of direction and tight pacing. Not to mention the framing of the fight sequences was actually not bad! And because pandas are cool…and like so cute! Man, it totally inspired me to be panda-ish - you know, finding my own "kungfu" kick-ass style. 

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I also read one blog entry promising myself to go for Theatre Practise auditions. I DID IT!And got through it…almost*laf* But dang, its just a flicker of hope at this point (as Daph would put it) I shall totally do the exercise that was used in the audition and see if my conversational chinese gets any better. If not, I’ll just be damm fat. Muahahha. TNS NEXT!

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Im half excited, half impatient about the wedding. (Well, if you didnt already know, I’m engaged and off the market for good!) I wanna see the dress and do nice wedding favours but I also wanna spend my money on other stuff!!! According to the bridal lady, I have "mature" tastes. In other words, I aint liking no princess bride. Jonathan and Shou Chen…so hope you guys can be there

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Im stuck between doing Wizard of Oz…or Rainbow Fish. Should I do ensemble for a big show or character role for small show? Which would be a better show for me to grow and stretch with? *think* At this point…I think its time to step up to doing a full character. I need to build stamina, learn to how to extend a character’s life beyond 10 minutes. (Not that I cant learn anything from doing ensemble work) I dont always get the chance so…

(1) I have an overwhelming urge to act overseas…like fly to some far away land and do theatre. Wonder if it will ever happen…

(2) If your throat tickles, scratch your ear. Really, it works

(3) I really wont mind doing another feature film…seeing as this aint my year in theatre. *cross fingers really tight*

(4) Find sleeping a complete waste of time…apparently people have conditioned themselves to function properly on 4 hours of sleep throughout the day. How cool is that?

(5) Do I really speak Chinese funny? I thought i sound quite intelligble. "Wo shi hua ren, wo hui jiang hua yu" Nono?

(6) Narnia was so-so, as was Indiana Jones. Accuracy of Death came close to being good (not just because of Aniki Jin)..but unfortunately I fell asleep. Tired lar.

(7) Doing some insect show…and I really was hoping NO ONE would see it. Of course, alot of people did. (sigh…its all about the money, its all about the money)

(8) Is it true that depression is an occupational hazard for actors?

(9) I hate running…I prefer to swim. For some reason, running just seems to bore the hell out of me.

(10)Never eat broccoli infused lobster bisque. The sai that follows after is potent man. Like atomic-bomb potent.