Life’s a contradictory constant

Just finished The Swimming Instructor photoshoot today. Apparently, I dont have big enough tits to be"sexy" (although i beg to differ*sniff*) and I had to be cheeky and pouty and leery throughout the whole shoot. And, I looker even blacker then I do now. I must say though, the bikini was really comfy! Cant wait for the photos to come out…THIS is going to be interesting. AND, also very stressful. I cant stop thinking about how big a thing this is, and the chances of me screwing up. EEK! *pull hair* Not to mention, my parents aren’t going to be too pleased that I am playing a spoilt rich girl with issues that wants to get laid by an ah beng. And if they do get the see the pictures, chances are my mum is going to fly into a "im-so-jealous" fit again. EEK! I just want to get the character right and truthfully as possible, so I hope I dont fail too spectacularly. *gulp*

Well, after the photoshoot, I went on a impromptu theatre excursion. Watched Survivor Singapore with a HUGE bunch of school kids, who were appreciatively laughing at all the right and wrong bits. All I have to say is..its basically Singapore Rhetoric 101. The play plays touch-and-go with prevalent issues in context with the youth, but very much pointing towards the larger scheme of things in Singapore. For 90 minutes, it does bring up alot of issues for the kids to discuss (and to agree upon) but I think its just not enough to fully explore the dimensions of the issues contemporary Singapore faces. The play ultimately isn’t making a statement, but expresses opinions to be challenged and supported. SO be prepared to leave feeling somewhat unfinished because of the open ending. I suppose its a good starter piece for the Fringe festival, so kudos to Director Natalie for making it engaging enough for students. Super funny though (its got KUMAR!!) and fast paced.

OK just for CHIN, if you manage to skip the cheem parts and actually reach here…had fun with you at TCC that day. We should arrange one day do tai-tai spa-cum-shopping trip with the other two missing ones. Love ya! *grin* When you upload photos must let me see k!!*hug*

For the theatre people reading this, do you think its suidicially crazy for me to audition for Asian Boys Vol 3 using the Eleanor Wong Trilogy???

*bangheadagainstwall*

Not that I’m hoping to actually get a part, of course (please, with all the girls auditioning for that one role), just that it feels shiok to deliver a good audition.

Howhowhowhow. Sigh.

Did a bridal shoot for work over the weekend at a very nice studio in Selegie. Super long one that lasted about 5 - 6 hours with makeup/hair/costume changes. After the "ordeal", photographer sent me this lil picture …

As one would so cleverly assume, I am indeed talking about Pan’s Labyrinth. It is a wonderful piece of story-telling. Although the visuals and framing are rather straight forward, the editing and directorial effort make for heartwrenching poignancy. I thought that it may be similar to The Labyrinth (David Bowie *drool*) but essentially these two movies are completely different worlds, with completely different fates.

Pan’s Labyrinth, although ageless and wondrous, starts and ends with Ofelia. Decidedly, Del Toro weaves her tale around the labyrinth, which becomes her source of life and her death. It’s a place to escape, to hide; created to cope with and understand the horrors that surround her. As reality and illusion collide in a horribly satisfying climax in the labyrinth, the ending becomes all the more finite. All that is left is for us to deal with the viciousness of war and death, simply because we longer have access to that world of escape.

I seriously applaud his choices - Del Toro has his pacing just right and the horrors of war are articulated at its simplest and most raw. Because he chose to tell it the micro-level, he effectively tied down Ofelia’s personal journey with the chaotic evolution of her dual worlds. He also utilizes the labyrinth as a metaphor to full effect - which greatly enhances the irony of the situation. What can I say? I just love it! I wish I could bloody write a whole essay about this movie, but I’m too lazy and I’ve no time *aheam* JUST GO WATCH IT AND YOU WILL UNDERSTAND

On another note. I have been watchin too much cable! Especially Home and Health, which happens to showing loads of documentaries about childbirth and conception. F***K! Dont they have the decency to censor those parts where the v-jayjay gets unbelievably mutilated in the process of giving birth to a life sized baby!!!! *Holds v-jayjay in mock pain* If that doesnt stop girls from having sex, I dont know what will. My gawd! (in case you are wondering, we have arived at the "all things decidedly biological part")

I now have all the respect in the world for all my friends who are moms because I dont think I will be able to last an hour before bashing up the nearest thing next to me and then knocking myself unconscious. *shudder* And kudos to the dads that decide to be part of the process. Most of the dads-to-be on cable were crying like little girls though. I am not sure whether this was from the joy of seeing their baby borne, or from the sheer brutality of it all.*laf* Note: babies are really ugly things before they get washed off after birth. No wonder the first thing my dad uttered when he saw me was " Eeyur, why so ugly one". Thanks dad, I love you too.

Deaths, labyrinths and v-jayjays. Its no wonder Barry calls me ‘crazy’. Hmm.

(1) I am tooo-o obssessed with ‘Princess Hours’. I cant help myself! *banghead*

(2) Movida = good, Rest of St James = blindingly bad, Dragonfly = … = *lafheadoff*

(3) That I cant boogie wit e’ ass to save my life.

(4) If you are not a qualified user of the vacumn cleaner, you COULD suck your room empty. Like no-curtains-or-wires-left empty. *awkward grin*

(5) I can , because of my obssesion with ‘Princess Hours’, imitate a typical Korean girl pretty well. Ask me ask me!

(6) The shortest amount of time I ever clubbed with the girls: 3hrs

(7) Gong Li beats Zhang Zi Yi hands down as THE Queen. (From the boobs, its easy to tell)

(8) Inspite of incurring the wrath of many fans *gulp*, Neil Gaiman is not a good a writer as he is a graphic novelist. His concepts are good, but in words, its just not good enough.

(9) Kate Beckinsale has been in too many vampire movies (although I think she is one hot vampyr)

(10) In my opinion, there is no such thing as a democratic state. Its an ideal, as much as socialism is reality. OK?!

Love you all! Signing out and off to bed (or more weepy korean love stories) *woot*

Well looking back at all the entries I have written in the past one year and half, I have come to the conclusion that blogs are really a digital chronicle of its owners.

Some people write about the their love for food, others about bags. Some use it as a way to keep in touch with their family. The need to express a thought already indicates a personality, a perspective, a person. Although blogs can be somewhat inaccurate (considering that bloggers write for an audience and therefore are "performing") they have become a way for people like me to assess my goals and developments. It helps you reflect on who you are and have become. Of course, responsible persons like myself do feel accountable for all that I write on my blog and all the more it pushes me to take ownership of the goals that I made. *grin*

But leaving such a definitive trail can be a curse as well. Your history is openly displayed & archived for the virtual community - anyone can have information on you. For one, to have information is power and to give it away is to empower others. Not surprisingly, expression and wisdom dont always go
hand in hand and so you have people saying really stupid things they regret.  And because readers don’t neccessarily have the context (and even if they do), they can damm well form any opinion they want about you. Its their right because you have placed yourself under scrutiny in the digital domain.To be judged by who you were/am and what you did/do can disadvantage you even before you have a chance to prove otherwise.

Well that being said, having a digital journal breeds individuality. To want to have your voice heard and assuming people would hear is a very vain thing, but it helps you know yourself. I suppose the internet has become the poster boy for post-moden democratic ideals, but even then the blog has propelled the ideal even further. Each one of us has a voice and its great to be heard. People start debates and create new ideas, and are inspired to share their lives. Others exchange stories and become more complete from that exchange. People start revolutions. You must understand that you have been given power of expression, and with that power comes great responsibilty (how lame but true).

Point is, you are your blog. Whatever you say means something, says something about you. Dont treat it lightly.

PS there is a reason why TIME chose YOU as their Person Of The Year. Think about it. And ah…Im all up for writing rubbish and no brainer stuff. Half of my entries are  *grin*

NO…the phonecall has not come yet. Here are pictures from oh-so-fun-filled jack rehearsals!! Courtesy of jon lum *GRIN* Lazy to photoshop and make nice nice so you just have to make do. There is the i-gallop scene in progress (oh the craftings of artistic geniuses~!) And also meeting up the Y n Wers for supper …great detox I must say. You can also try to figure out which mangaish-clad clone I am. Have fun!

PS. And no..me and candice havent been hanging out THAT much.

Waiting for that all-important call*look at phone again*

*bitenails*

Its a bitch*grr*

Well then. Now that the new year has arrived, its time to say goodbye to 2006. Of course there is the customary "Lesee..what have I done in the past year? In no random order of course"

(1) Made my first documentary (and with a bloody difficult company)

(2) Did my first musical at UCC*jumpjump*

(3) Did my first pantomine at Drama Centre (learnt loads, worked with great people)

(4) Climbed 2 volcanoes in Bali reaching 3000m, all the for the sake of a travel pilot

(5) Got into Young and Wild (and met all this funny people! check out eleanor’s blog for the party pictures!)

(6) Got into the semifinals of 5 Takes for Discovery Channel (long story *sigh*)

(7) Sung for the president of Singapore (my god, that was a nail biting experience)

(8) Flew to Shanghai to wine and dine clients while doing production recce

(9) Planned a couple of weddings (My favourite was the one at the beach!!)

So there you have it, 9 things I did in 2006. Well, the most fun anyway. Any resolutions for the new year? A few…

(1) Go to the gym more - dont wanna pay em money for nothing

(2) Be more patient. Do the zen thing

(3) Learn more new things about everything and anything

(4) Stick it out in theatre - go for as many auditions as possible

(5) Talk less and listen more

ENOUGH lists. So what was your year like? *look at you* I hope everyone had a great time over the holidays. I did! Miss and love you all…catch up with you soon!*hug* Now to hunt down my friends and meet em one by one…