Been getting easily irritated and frustrated with every single breathing human being. Trying to make a living while doing what you like, and expecting to be the best at it is practically just stressing me out. I think I am just toooooo much of a sadist - making life difficult for myself seems to the easiest thing to do nowadays *laf*
*sigh*
When was the last you heard your loved one call you by your name?
When you first meet, you are shy to call out to each other. You don’t even talk much. When you get closer, its usually a tap on a shoulder or a meeting of the eyes or a flirty sms. It does not really take a verbal cue to get each other’s attention. When you are together, you address your loved one “dear” or “darling” or baby”. Even your ‘I love yous’ are just that.
When really was the last time you called out your loved one’s full name?
It is so interesting to note that the one of the things that define who you are is not commonly used by the person who loves you as you are. Call your beloved’s name and enjoy saying it as much as you enjoy the person.
Did any one actually see the Miss Universe Prelude program showing on 5 just one or two days back? Anybody?
*vomitpukecrashfaintgurgle*
Case in point: "Overwhelming demand" usually means "underwhelming beauty". Muhahhahahahahahahhahaha. *aheam*
Just a thought.
Is it me or do independents only come up with films that cross between the whimiscal, the strange and the artsy? It would be an over-generalisation but Garden State was weirdly nice and I Heart Huckabees was screwed up, cuckoo humor. I guess this is what you get when you don’t have capitalist hounds barking down on you; a very individualistic, philosophical and refreshing take on life. You might even argue that you have an auteur on your hands. But that’s not to say that Hollywood doesn’t breed auteurs; its just that they are so assimilated into the Hollywood formula they all just seem to be main-stream, mass-following blockbuster-churners.
Take for instance, Steven Spielberg. He does have his pet topics but does that make him an auteur? In a world where Hollywood and classical narrative doesn’t exist, I suppose he does qualify. But of course, being an autuer requires more then just a contextual obsession. Its all about visuals and motifs and themes and philosophy. And yet if his style is very much similar to the formulaic way movies are made, does this mean that his vision is merely a carbon copy of every other director in Hollywood?
And what’s to say that independant film makers, with their interesting take on common themes is not following every one else who is making movies with interesting takes on common themes? Making up stories and screwing around with film theory as a means to express oneself is not that "individualistic" because there are afterall so few rules to play around with, and if people do not understand whats the point? * They could be following an "arthouse" formula as opposed to classic Hollywood. If that is so, then what makes them more celebrated as "auteurs"? In fact, what makes Woody Allen a Hollywood director and Jim Jarmusch not?
The point is every one is so mixed up that you cant exactly label someone or something; you know, put them in the box. Influences are flying in all directions and with the rapid information exchange and growing fragmented film audiences, every one can claim to be an auteur (not everyone, at least grasp the basic concepts of film yes? Someone who doesnt know how to explain what he did cant possibly be a genius; its a fluke shot) In fact, I am inclined to believe that both Hollywood and Independants have auteuristic tendencies which are bordered by the confines of capitalism. Even cheem-ass arthouse directors go for the money once in awhile; people like WKW are lucky their style is widely accepted and understood by a ready audience.
Directors who start out labelled as arthouse directors have dipped their toes in the Hollywood pond; which does not make them traitors of the artform. Vice versa for hollywood directors. Lets not start seperating directors works into "Arthouse" or "Hollywood", just enjoy their body of work as it is. Let what they chose to do and not tell you who they are as visionaries. All this labelling just obscures the essence of filmmaking, which is about telling a story. There must be some reason why these directors still continue what they do; they tell stories in a way that engage people and talk about themes that people care about. Give them that much credit - they are what we would call in the actors’ world a "good" director.
* This is a whole new argument so we shall leave it for later; lets just base it on the assumption that movies are made to be watched
Say "no" to something and then give flimsy, pathetic excuses as to why you said what you said. I know excuses when I see it.
Tell me "Up to you" and then when I have decided, confirmed,ascertained my choice, tell me that "Huh, don’t want leh"
Predict or "know" what my reaction or answer will be. Don’t.
take revenge or be spiteful just because I don’t rub you the right way. You just look mighty childish.
GRRRRRR.
*clink* This is my 5-0 post! I made it that far! Its a-amazing *evil laf*
On another note, people have been telling me that my photos don’t do me justice, in other words…they suck. I am just inclined to think that the camera does NOT love me and that is why I look like shit all the time and hence I should NOT be doing TV work *deep deep breath*
Also, did you know that embryonic stem cells are pluripotent? FWAH.
And, when you have sex, five to six little foetus-like thingies are promptly killed in the consummation. HMMM.
UPDATES: I just went for a interview with Eggstory. Apparently the guy interviewing me is someone I know, and it went really unformally. *shrug* Interesting. I realise that I would probably be doing a really funky job right now, if not for my love of theatre. I could be doing creative there or marketing else where. And I don’t know whether I’m doing career suicide, but this freelancing thing is working out pretty ok. And I’m doing a couple of other weddings! So fun!
*shake butt*
You know, you geography students out there will probably be familiar with this geology term. But I have always found it amusingly applicable to people..its just so appropriate.
"Hey what happened to you! You don’t look like your baby picture! Must be time -space transformation" followed by "Muahahhahaha"
Sorry its a nerd joke. *aheam*
Two things: SICK and DOCUMENTARY
I cant believe I fell sick, even more so during the run of Vagina Monologues. At least I survived the run intact. Can you imagine me saying "clitoris" and "vagina workshop" in a runny, hoarse voice? *laf* So tired *snuggle under blanket*
And I never knew how crazy productions are in reality. In a academic context, making films and documentaries are farking fun but when the capitalist kicks in, productions are all about making deadlines and profits. Absolutely crazy la!
Thanks. That was about as much as I could blog without my brain shutting down. heh.
